Dissolute man in a fashionable society

Be a bad bass or be a gentlemen. Doesn't matter.Choose one, don't pretend to be both at the same time. You can not do that !

What does being a bad ass mean ? Being a bad ass means to be a morally restrained dissolute person who does thing what he likes and with full honesty and belief in what he does without being considerate of how other's feel and think. 

What really matters is what you see of yourself. Yes we need recognition and appeaciation once in a while. But if  you are not confident about who you are.. then you need to be confident. Do things which makes you feel good. Be a bad ass, do things for yourself, do things which will boost you up, forget about the others.If you think about what others are going to think, what will they do?  let them do what they want, let them say what they say, the only thing you gotta do is be a bad ass and keep doing it. 

PS: "doing" in above lines can have the other meaning also.Its alright. You can do that also. Men are up for it all the time and its a bone hard medical fact.

And about the gentlemen part. Oh Common ! you are not expecting that here i hope. 

Home is where my heart is

Jim Morisson - " In need of some strangers hand, trapped in a desperate land "
Its not the stranger hand that makes you peaceful.It might be ...but i haven't come across any such stranger in my weird and strange life. The whole idea of Anjana-Anjani is still Anjaan to me It is the songs which mesmerizes us into this love-like feel but when the music stops you are like "Stars roses and the sky?? oh fcuk where am i ??"
You get tired of the dancing crowd , you get tired of aimlessly wandering miles and miles  from one friends home to another.But these were also necessary for the sheer realisation ...that its not just love/lust/fun  what we desire desperately.But, it is the support system which is most needed... which everyone needs at some point of time. And what is the support system right ??  it is our family, our friends, religion. It is this support we lean on to in the circumstances which are too much to cope with. There are many who will proudly deny showing they dont need anyone, they don't care about how you feel and what you do(they are cool right ? FU then) ....but they also need someone they also have their support system intact which makes them so arrogant about their ingratitude towards others.But one realises this only in the state of complete despair.
I have no ambitions of writing in the TOI Spirituous guru column. Its just  I miss my home very much and I think they are many others like me,I want to go home...  I am not completely mature though i still have a lot childishness left in me,but what to do i have become a BLODDY HOMESICK !

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What do i seek ?? What am i looking for ?? What do i want from life ?? What do i want to be ?? Is it Money in the end what i want from life, is money what i seek??... No certainly not.The hunt goes on and on ,you keep looking for something,you are never satisfied, you never will.....you always need something...Why the desperation ?? why the craving for the unknown ??  what is the sole purpose of my existence?? ... why am i so dumb of everything in my surroundings ...there are hell lot of questions which comes in my mind, the thoughts which  restlessly wanders in my head  for which i find no answer to....and I know for sure, it is only me who will have to answer...And  I am not writing this blog for improving my writing skills, i am writing this all for my-self, to help myself to find back my true self.. i want to talk to myself... i want to be content yet insane.


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